Full Moon in Capricorn~ Illuminating Saturn's Wisdom

Hello beautiful souls,

It’s been a while since I wrote to you last. Life has been taking center stage and has been filled with nearby by and faraway travel.

Now that I am back home and have some time and space to write, I wanted to share my thoughts on the energies we can anticipate with the Strawberry Full moon in Capricorn right around the corner.

When we talk about Capricorn energy, we often think about ambition. We visualize and see this quirky goat hanging off mountain cliffs, eager to climb desolate terrain that not many animals dare to venture through. And yet, the goat does for it knows. What it knows remains coveted in mystery. And this is where the mysticism of the goat, of Capricorn, comes into play.

Capricorn, along with Sagittarius, are the only two zodiac signs that are comprised of two animals in one. Capricorn has the top body of a goat and the tail of a fish, symbolizing Capricorn’s connection to both earth and water.

Though Capricorn is traditionally seen as an earth sign, for which it very much is, its connection to the intuitive, watery realms of emotions is often overlooked and neglected.

When we think of Capricorn, we often think of worldly ambition and monetary success. These aspects often ring true and contribute to defining the Capricornian persona and lifestyle. But another aspect of Capricorn is their intuitive and emotional nature.

This nature is often depicted through Capricorn’s moodiness and occasional depressive and pessimistic thought and tendencies. In fact, a lot of astrology books define Capricorns as being moody, dark, prone to depression and occasionally pessimistic.

But what if these darker, shadowy aspects had to do with the fact that a lot of Capricorns remain unaware of their deep connection to water, to emotions and to the mystical?

What if, under this full moon, we took the time to turn our attention to these aspects of our Capricornian energy? What if we used our intuition and mystical force as guiding principles for our ambition and vision? Might the moodiness subside, and might the depressive thoughts and tendencies gently begin to lift, leaving way for a beautiful, orange-hued sunset to chase away the dark clouds?

As I contemplate this full moon, it is the watery side of Capricorn that captivates my focus. Having pursued a traditional Capricorn inspired career all the way (law anyone?), I soon realized that there would be no soul satisfaction for me there in the long run. Worse, I was not using my abilities nor my talents. Rather, my abilities and talents had been silenced to allow the tangible, physical, to take center stage. Anything that was unseen or untouchable had no place in a court of law.

Though the material success I could have experienced had I chosen to continue this path would have no doubt been abundant and fruitful in many ways, at a soul level, it would have left me feeling dead inside. I know this because I experienced it in part and foresaw this pathway and were it led. And it led to misery and unhappiness because my tail would eventually dry out, causing a complete severance from my sensitive, intuitive and emotional nature.

Though stepping away from such a stable and secure career wasn’t easy, it has been richly rewarding and challenging all at the same time. Since I left the physical and monetary stability of law behind, I have developed an inner sanctuary cosmically intertwined with the universe and deeply rooted in the more mystical and ethereal ways of being. I have cultivated inner security, wealth and abundance and now dance in my rich fertility and inner nourishment. I have released a lot of attachments and old ways of being that kept me stuck in autopilot without truly living. There has been a lot of peace and a lot of serenity. I have felt ecstatic liberation and pure joy. As my emotional range expanded into the blissful, it simultaneously expanded my darker parts as well. I've experienced depression in more ways than one. I've felt disconnected and dissociated from people and society. I've felt frustrated on more occasions than I can count, and I have often wondered what all this has been for. And yet, I have remained.

I have remained dedicated to walking this path for it is imprinted in my soul. Though I sometimes wish it were easier, simpler, I know deep down, being a daughter of Saturn, that easy does not mean soul growing. And what Capricorn has ever chosen easier? Simpler? None that I know. Saturn wouldn’t allow it. And so I endure. I cultivate more patience. More resilience. More determination.

Though I do not see the end of this initiation or fully comprehend its purpose just yet, I know that it has one. Every movement by spirit through me, through life circumstances, events and people all serve a greater purpose, even though that purpose may remain veiled and out of sight.

This is sometimes part of spirit’s way for us to develop and foster more trust and faith in the unknown. If we knew the edges, the curves and wines the journey was to take before we ever took that first step, would we even bother to set foot?

Though the unknown can be hard to understand and nearly impossible to grasp, it is an intangible force pushing and compelling us forward, nonetheless.

This is the path of the magical. This is the path of the mystical.

It’s a wonderful and enchanting path to be sure, but it is also riddled with challenges, obstacles, delays, defeats, losses, frustrations and dead ends. All of which have been divinely orchestrated for our highest good.

Sometimes we can get so caught up in the human aspect of life and believe that we are left alone to scale such an immense mountain. And yet the universe is there, perhaps in unperceivable, intangible ways to reminds us that we are never alone. We are never alone in our pain; we are never alone in our misery. We are never alone in our suffering.

The climbing of a mountain is no easy task and very few dare take the risk of leaving the comfort of their homes. And so, under this full moon, Capricorn energy is to be applauded, it is to be appreciated. Not only for its material success and abundance, but for the rich wisdom and maturation this sign has gleaned over time.

This full moon is here to acknowledge Capricornian success in terms of soulful maturation, growth, and richness. It is here to illuminate the harsh lessons learned and mastered over the years, the lessons surpassed without anyone knowing anything at all.

This is to all the souls that have been fighting deep inner battles within themselves, battles that no one knew anything about, and yet they still choose to hold on to live another day.

Capricorn energy, for all of its doom and occasional gloom remains steady in its innate power. Power that could only be stepped in resilience, patience and determination by Saturn himself.

For Saturn is no easy planetary ruler. Saturn takes aways, removes, delays, restricts and limits until we are ready. Ready for what, that is part of Saturn’s mysticism.

Saturn is indeed an ancient mystic. Saturn is a wayshower.

It is through limitation, restriction, boundary and drought that the soul turns inwards and starts to know itself. These lessons, no other planet chose to bestow upon souls, and so Saturn stepped up to the plate and chose to bear the burden of these lessons with us. Saturn chose to bind himself to us for when we are facing limitation, delay and restriction, he is with us. Saturn, reserved teacher and mystical initiator is right here with us through our hardships, urging us forward through the lessons so that we may gain knowledge, for knowledge embodied over time becomes wisdom which is the ultimate gift that Saturn wishes to bestow upon us.

Saturn understands and inherently knows that his tasks aren’t for the faint of heart. He understands that very few souls survive his teachings and lessons, many choosing to prematurely end the experience before the lesson is mastered. And so, with this Saturn looks on, hoping that we master his teachings in the following round. For though he might not always know how to show it, Saturn cares for each and every one of us deeply.

Though his love is harsher, more reserved with a disciplinarian edge, we can rest easy in his knowing. His knowing that we are being forged into something better though we cannot yet see or comprehend it...

And so without sight, we must trust. Saturn wishes for us to trust with the fullness of our hearts and the strength of souls in the knowing that the lessons, the hardships, the challenges will not have be in vain.

Whether you find yourself deeply entrenched in the earthly side of Capricorn seeking the more mystical and intuitive or alternatively, if you find yourself stuck in the emotional water side, unable to move forward and claim the earthly success that is your just reward, continue to have faith. Exercise patience. Allow this full moon to illuminate your next steps. Do not give into despair and hang on.

Your soul lessons are taking you somewhere. Allow Saturn to guide you.